Hey all, I wish I had better news to report, but unfortunately, I don't. About 3:30 am this morning, I went into labor at home, and delivered him in our bathroom. He was stillborn, or because he was just under 20 wks, they consider it a miscarriage. He was absolutely beautiful. I had the doctor cut open the amniotic sack so I could see my little angel, and he was perfect. The hurt I feel right now is unbearable, and it may be a while before I'm back online. I need some time to begin the healing process. Thank you all very much for your prayers and well wishes. It really means a lot to me. We have pretty much moved into our new place, if anyone gets a chance, or would like to even come and visit, our phone # is 651-207-5189 or try our cell phone at 612-325-8963. You all are wonderful, and I don't know what I'd do without you as a back up. Thanks.
OMG...I'm so sorry to hear this news. I'm sure I'm just like everybody else that would try to express their sympathy and not sure what to say. Nothing we can say will ever replace your lost.
Your son even in short 20 weeks was a angel indeed...as a member of the cooler it was easy to see great joy and happiness that he brought to your life and ours. Please try to never forget those positive memories as you move forward with this pain. He will always be a part for your life and I would hate to see you dwell on just the one negative part of his life.
My prayers are with all 3 of you and the rest of your family.
Take time for you and take care of yourself. You'll never forget your little angel, but time will help ease the excrutiating pain you are experiencing now.
aug 15-18. and when we get back, we're going to make an 80 square foot hole in the wall of the house, and add 20 sq ft of floor space to the master bathroom.
and then we're going to go to disneyworld from the 20th-27th of september (for tc's birthday).
Thanks guys, we're still in the process of moving the big stuff out of our apt, so I thoght I'd pop online before I unhook the computer. This is the hardest thing I think I've ever gone thru. My first miscarriage was hard, but not nearly has hard as this one. I'm thankful that I was able to hold my son, tell him how much his mommy loves him, and say goodbye. He was 7.6 oz, 8.5 in long. He has long fingers and toes like Mark, Mark's long legs and arms, my head, nose, and eyes. He was so beautiful. I guess I really can't describe the feelings that I'm experiancing. Shock, numbness, emptiness, lonliness, ect. I know it's normal, and I know it takes time. I also have some amazing pictures of him. I wanted some keepsakes. He was my son. He may not have come into this world alive, but he still deserves an identity. We had him creamated and will be picking up his remains on Monday. We were able to get the cutest little blue heart urn for him, and had his name and birthdate inscribed on it. I know that probably sounds strange to some people, but at least I'll have my little boy with me at all times, other than just in my heart and memories. Once we get everything situated though, we do plan on having a housewarming party of sorts. I will keep you all posted, as you all are invited. Thanks again for your prayers and well wishes. It really means a lot to me. Take care and God Bless you all.
KT showing up reminded me of seeing BECKSIE yesterday....
She said she made the thread about a month ago but didn't know how to post..(I'm sure she had an confirmation thingy in her email b4 posting) but what do I know...
I'm leaving today for my family vacation. My family and my sister's. We're going to a resort on Lake Osakis. We do this every year and reserve the whole resort. There will be 55 of us this year! Yikes! But I'm looking forward to it. Talk to you all when I get back.
Have fun OT! I'm gone this week also. Starting out camping/Atving in Snake river park and then boating wed and thurday on St croix then up north to Danbury for more 4 wheelin. :smile: :cool:
I survived my first full week at Federal ammo, not bad I get paid every week Thats nice. I think I am going to keep trying to do Illustrations on the side, I am going to start sending samples of my work to art directors around town.
Mrs Borden was struck first, with 19 blows... and Mr Borden was struck nearly an hour and a half later with 11 blows to his head.
The neat thing is.. Lizzys' uncle (birth mothers brother) was a suspect, but after having an alibi for being at other relatives homes near the same time, he was no longer a suspect. Lizzy and the maid were the later suspects. The funny thing... Mrs. Borden was making his bed when she was killed.... hmmmm....
hey all just an update. I'm actually doing a lot better than I thought I would be. I still have my moments, but I think I'm coming to terms with the whole ordeal. Here is a link, if anyone cares to look. I just thought I'd share my son with you all, reguardless of the circumstances.
I would have rather went camping then what I did this weekend...
I would have traded in a sec.
Since friday night...drove 690 miles..moving most of my grandmas stuff...2 freezers...hidabed..another couch etc...and then all those boxes...
my grandma's such a pack rat...not so much nicknacks...its Can food items....stuff she's canned herslf...(I think she's parinoid of another depression) must have been 35 boxes of food alone...
(who the heck has ever had zuccinini jam?)
I need to help move my parents in a few more weeks...grrrrrrrr....
Mystical
:frown:
Your son even in short 20 weeks was a angel indeed...as a member of the cooler it was easy to see great joy and happiness that he brought to your life and ours. Please try to never forget those positive memories as you move forward with this pain. He will always be a part for your life and I would hate to see you dwell on just the one negative part of his life.
My prayers are with all 3 of you and the rest of your family.
Take time for you and take care of yourself. You'll never forget your little angel, but time will help ease the excrutiating pain you are experiencing now.
:frown: :frown: :frown:
Truly sorry
::loss for words::
Take all the time you need MM. Really sorry to hear of your loss. Our deepest sympathy is with you.
Very well said Kitch!
and then we're going to go to disneyworld from the 20th-27th of september (for tc's birthday).
hugs for both you and Mark
thanks for telling mm what I can't Kitch.
I hope you heal quickly.
Hugs your way, dear.
(like I was a 2 year old) :goofy:
She said she made the thread about a month ago but didn't know how to post..(I'm sure she had an confirmation thingy in her email b4 posting) but what do I know...
anyways she said she is doing good... :smile:
was fun to chat with her for a while...
have a good weekend to all... :angry:
w00t
I survived my first full week at Federal ammo, not bad I get paid every week Thats nice. I think I am going to keep trying to do Illustrations on the side, I am going to start sending samples of my work to art directors around town.
Mrs Borden was struck first, with 19 blows... and Mr Borden was struck nearly an hour and a half later with 11 blows to his head.
The neat thing is.. Lizzys' uncle (birth mothers brother) was a suspect, but after having an alibi for being at other relatives homes near the same time, he was no longer a suspect. Lizzy and the maid were the later suspects. The funny thing... Mrs. Borden was making his bed when she was killed.... hmmmm....
sorry, cm. couldn't resist it :smile:
:smile:
MM, So sorry to hear the news.. even if you never read this, I hope things go well for you in the new house.
I am another with poor wording, if you need an ear, you have my Yahoo...
:Hugs:
Well, chores are done, beer is packed and it's off to the beach. Later kids
I'm hoping today won't be all that bad.
I never knew a freezer can be so heavy...and my grandma needs to start eating some of her can jams/jellies...boxes upon boxes....
moving people isn't so bad but can food is just a little 2 heavy..
Kitch, you still wish you had gone camping?
It was hotter then hell out there!
http://www.geocities.com/mystical_muzik/babycharles.html
I would have traded in a sec.
Since friday night...drove 690 miles..moving most of my grandmas stuff...2 freezers...hidabed..another couch etc...and then all those boxes...
my grandma's such a pack rat...not so much nicknacks...its Can food items....stuff she's canned herslf...(I think she's parinoid of another depression) must have been 35 boxes of food alone...
(who the heck has ever had zuccinini jam?)
I need to help move my parents in a few more weeks...grrrrrrrr....
But it's about the size of a briefcase.