It ultimately is up to you to be the person you are, but you have had Amy influence your life, and she will continue to influence your life. You have seen how life was without her, and what it was like with her. It seems that she helped you see new meaning to life, give you new values that improved your life. You still have that meaning and those values.
I think that Ali will be the woman in your life that will help keep you from being self-destructive. She'll do it in a different way than Amy though. I think you'll look at Ali and think of her, and realize that you can't, and more importantly do not want to lead that self-destructive life.
We're constantly developing and changing people. Think of the person you were right before you met Amy, of the person you were when you were married to Amy, of the person you were when Ali was entering school. There's going to be differences in the person that you are. It's all a part of being human and growing. We have all these things that affect us. Who knows what you'll be like in 10 years? It's hard to say because you don't know who will come and go in your life, and where life will take you. Right now it seems like you want to be a passenger on the road of life, but with time I hope you are a driver on the road of life.
I think you'll look at Ali and think of her, and realize that you can't, and more importantly do not want to lead that self-destructive life.
I think so too. Good point. It's working so far.
Right now it seems like you want to be a passenger on the road of life, but with time I hope you are a driver on the road of life.
Very well said TMK!
Unfortunately, I feel as if I don't have the ability to drive right now even though I'm doing what I can. It's just that it feels more like treading water than going forward. But I suppose that's better than going backward anyway.
It is the sorting everything out, then taking it back within yourself and eventually it feels like it is ALL part of what makes you YOU
Very nicely put. I just wanna get 'through' this ASAP but also know that things will become more in focus when they decide too and not by me pushing it. I feel like a very different person already even if I did go back to my 'other' self.
It's one other reason why I respect older people. I think of all the vast life experiences that come with age and can't help but view my elders as helpful guides. And going through this myself at my age also shows me that anyone at any age can go through many different life challenges at any time of their life and not to write off another human being as not being important. Everyone is important.
I now feel as if I can look deeper into a persons being just by looking into their eyes while their talking. For all the cloudiness I feel right now, I do have a bit of clarity when it comes to understanding people a little better.
You don't have to drive right now. You can hop on the bus with all of us if you want. You have friends who are willing to be your "sober cab" in a sense. We're here for you, and there are others here for you to help you get along.
dont worry brother I wont show them the tape when you check in!!! only when you think your going to check out of the psycward!! lol You need a vaction I will go to work for you if you want just as long as I can keep the money!!!! I am in trouble!!!! bad!! And I have been talking at the ground alot latly!!! is that a good thing???
One thing I know for certain is that we continue to grow throughout our lives. Experiences - happy, sad, good, bad, joyous and devastating all come together to make us who we are and are becoming.
The joyous times are wonderful. The sad, bad, devastating ones see to cause the most growth. Perhaps it's because we look further into ourselves during those times as we try to reason through why things happen the way they do.
If there was a way to help you get through this quickly CM, I'd be the first to jump in and do it. I know it's horribly painful. How can life go on and what's normal when you lose someone who means the world to you? Somehow you do. One foot in front of the other. One day after the next. I wish for you brighter days and less pain.
my brother has a signed jim henson poster!! that is prity kool!!! and hes as the on where it says something like the day they all went silint!!! with a mic. and the all the muppets nd stuff standing there looking at it!!! with his birth year and death year!!! I have almost all of the muppet shows on dvd!!! thats prity kool to!!!
Soon after the death of Jim Henson, Sad Kermit spiraled downward into a life full of addiction, romance and pain. The songs and videos on this webpage shed light on Sad Kermit's decent into his dark, hurting world. http://www.sadkermit.com/index.html
One thing I keep wondering is if I'm going to end up subconsciously pushing myself to be who I was before I met her instead of who I was with her.
Do you really need to try to be you, to be you? A similar but different thing I went through when I got back from Iraq. The home 'me' was put on pause, while the rest of the home world kept on going. Coming home, I tried to hit the pause button and make life like it was before I left. Yeah, it didn't work. Life and time and experience will change you, you just need to guide yourself or monitor yourself so that you are changing in the right direction.
It's just that it feels more like treading water than going forward.
Nothing wrong with treading water, buddy... If you need to hold on to the edge of the pool from time to time, that's alright too. Hell, sink to the bottom once or twice as long as you push yourself back up. Anyone can through you the life-saver ring, but in the end you are going to be the one pulling yourself in.
I heard a story about a butterfly once that I really think might apply here.
 A little boy had a caterpillar and kept it in a jar. days on end he would sit and care for and watch this lil' bugger do what caterpillars do inside jars. Soon it was building a cocoon on one of the branches in the jar. The little boy was all excited and showed all of his friends what was going on. A few days later and it was complete. Just a stick, a cocoon and some dead grass remained in the jar. Having read up on the fascinating creatures he knew what was going on. A few weeks go by and he sees a little movement in his jar. The new butterfly has started poking out from his cocoon! Just a little bit but it is definitely on its way out. He could not wait for the butterfly to come out of his cocoon, so he tore it open for him. Days he waited for it to become this majestic soaring beauty. But it's wings were small because he did not develop the strength and build up the necessary stuff to make him be what he was meant to be. Eventually this poor butterfly died not ever knowing the freedom of flight. If only the poor kid had known what he was doing.
 Don't rush your 'opening', it will happen when it happens, and you will be what you will be, and you will be as majestic as you had ever dreamed. (That sounded really gay but you know what I mean) :wink:
Damn Z! :frown: You sure know how to get me going. Very eloquently stated and great analogy. I hear ya. That's actually why I used a cocoon as my avatar in the first month after Amy passed. It fits well but never thought that ripping open the cocoon could be detrimental to any progress. Thanks for sharing your personal experiences man!
Don't forget to come out on Saturday to see the spectacular IGH fireworks display. I guarantee that you won't find a better small town display anywhere in Minnesota.
clue can you do me a huge faver and grabe me a button!! how much are they!! I need to find that gold star I just found one that I got from my grad party!! well I was looking for something the other day!!
It's kinda weird that as I do see 9/11 I also see another sad thing in that they have a good chunk of vacancies in those buildings. I always thought they were packed.
My brother-in-law made offers to buy the Foshay tower several times in years past (he always dreamed of owning it), but instead just built his own new towers, in Maple Grove. :sheepish:
I'm so sorry to hear that. I have two grandsons that age and it sickens me to think of a child of that age dying in any manner just when they're growing out of their childhood. Prayers go out to the family and friends.
Just talked to Rich and he told us that he is putting together a benefit (sounds like it will be a concert)... His sister is a single Mom and the family is going through a lot of financial hardship with his nephews tragic death. He will keep us posted as to where and when... I am sure a lot of coolers will want to show up to support him... what sad news! :frown:
ok well it starts agin one of my close couisnts has liver cancer!! just found out we dont know what can or will be done yet I wont know tell tomorrow!! this year is going on the books as my worst year yet!!! I feel like S@#t!!!
It ultimately is up to you to be the person you are, but you have had Amy influence your life, and she will continue to influence your life. You have seen how life was without her, and what it was like with her. It seems that she helped you see new meaning to life, give you new values that improved your life. You still have that meaning and those values.
I think that Ali will be the woman in your life that will help keep you from being self-destructive. She'll do it in a different way than Amy though. I think you'll look at Ali and think of her, and realize that you can't, and more importantly do not want to lead that self-destructive life.
We're constantly developing and changing people. Think of the person you were right before you met Amy, of the person you were when you were married to Amy, of the person you were when Ali was entering school. There's going to be differences in the person that you are. It's all a part of being human and growing. We have all these things that affect us. Who knows what you'll be like in 10 years? It's hard to say because you don't know who will come and go in your life, and where life will take you. Right now it seems like you want to be a passenger on the road of life, but with time I hope you are a driver on the road of life.
Skinned knees were easier to heal then broken a hearts.
I wish I could just kiss the booboo and put a bandaide on it...
::::HUGS:::::
i'm such a big softy :wink:
I think so too. Good point. It's working so far.
Right now it seems like you want to be a passenger on the road of life, but with time I hope you are a driver on the road of life.
Very well said TMK!
Unfortunately, I feel as if I don't have the ability to drive right now even though I'm doing what I can. It's just that it feels more like treading water than going forward. But I suppose that's better than going backward anyway.
Very nicely put. I just wanna get 'through' this ASAP but also know that things will become more in focus when they decide too and not by me pushing it. I feel like a very different person already even if I did go back to my 'other' self.
It's one other reason why I respect older people. I think of all the vast life experiences that come with age and can't help but view my elders as helpful guides. And going through this myself at my age also shows me that anyone at any age can go through many different life challenges at any time of their life and not to write off another human being as not being important. Everyone is important.
I now feel as if I can look deeper into a persons being just by looking into their eyes while their talking. For all the cloudiness I feel right now, I do have a bit of clarity when it comes to understanding people a little better.
The joyous times are wonderful. The sad, bad, devastating ones see to cause the most growth. Perhaps it's because we look further into ourselves during those times as we try to reason through why things happen the way they do.
If there was a way to help you get through this quickly CM, I'd be the first to jump in and do it. I know it's horribly painful. How can life go on and what's normal when you lose someone who means the world to you? Somehow you do. One foot in front of the other. One day after the next. I wish for you brighter days and less pain.
I allways liked fraggle rock!!!! lol
Kermit was hurt!
Soon after the death of Jim Henson, Sad Kermit spiraled downward into a life full of addiction, romance and pain. The songs and videos on this webpage shed light on Sad Kermit's decent into his dark, hurting world.
http://www.sadkermit.com/index.html
Do you really need to try to be you, to be you? A similar but different thing I went through when I got back from Iraq. The home 'me' was put on pause, while the rest of the home world kept on going. Coming home, I tried to hit the pause button and make life like it was before I left. Yeah, it didn't work. Life and time and experience will change you, you just need to guide yourself or monitor yourself so that you are changing in the right direction.
It's just that it feels more like treading water than going forward.
Nothing wrong with treading water, buddy... If you need to hold on to the edge of the pool from time to time, that's alright too. Hell, sink to the bottom once or twice as long as you push yourself back up. Anyone can through you the life-saver ring, but in the end you are going to be the one pulling yourself in.
I heard a story about a butterfly once that I really think might apply here.
 A little boy had a caterpillar and kept it in a jar. days on end he would sit and care for and watch this lil' bugger do what caterpillars do inside jars. Soon it was building a cocoon on one of the branches in the jar. The little boy was all excited and showed all of his friends what was going on. A few days later and it was complete. Just a stick, a cocoon and some dead grass remained in the jar. Having read up on the fascinating creatures he knew what was going on. A few weeks go by and he sees a little movement in his jar. The new butterfly has started poking out from his cocoon! Just a little bit but it is definitely on its way out. He could not wait for the butterfly to come out of his cocoon, so he tore it open for him. Days he waited for it to become this majestic soaring beauty. But it's wings were small because he did not develop the strength and build up the necessary stuff to make him be what he was meant to be. Eventually this poor butterfly died not ever knowing the freedom of flight. If only the poor kid had known what he was doing.
 Don't rush your 'opening', it will happen when it happens, and you will be what you will be, and you will be as majestic as you had ever dreamed. (That sounded really gay but you know what I mean) :wink:
http://www.wikisky.org/
:wink:
I wonder how bright it was before it was her star. Would you have even been able to have seen it then?
http://www.ighdays.org/pages/contributors/2007.htm
check out the archival footage
Stanley Hubbard donated a ton of footage I guess
I like how DT MPLS looked back then when the Foshay was towering over everything. You can barely see it now.
mezmorizing -
its been on my mind today
talked to Whitney about it, she says her favorite 911 movie is the one with the policemen trapped in the building (Nick Cage).
Thank You :frown:
nice flowers
My thoughts and prayers have been with you everyday!
no face for what I feel!!!!!!
Sorry, bud
I'm so sorry to hear this - you've been through so much this year.
1) Nick has a girlfriend that he really cares about
2) Cluemaster has the caddy back.
3) Me2's kids are all healthy and wiser
4) I'm engaged. To a woman! And she's cool!
5) Mucluck has a kid in college. College!
6) Posen, he's, well, Posen
7) Fraidy is still alive
8.) It's OT's anniversiary today. Happy Annivesary, Jane!
9) Vino's lost a bunch of weight. And is done with the grape harvest.
10) KC0 is finally ready to start looking to leave the job that's breaking him. Congratulations!
11) Mikey keeps getting A's in school
12) Zeph is home. And not dead.
13) Eags was here this summer.
14) Kitch has two beautiful daughters.
15) TC's dad is still in the fight.
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